How Can I Be Better If You Keep Saying I Never Changed?

As i remember, i’m rarely writing anymore. I didnt know what happen, is it nothing to share about or maybe i didnt know what to share anymore.

I'm never felt so lost before, especially when there is no one to share my grief.

Wasting my time to chase a ghost from a girl who would never loved me back. Trying to recreate the scenario with 'what if' that will never happen.

How can I be better if you keep saying I never changed?

I’ve tried and i’m tired. And if this the end of the road, should i looking for another route, or end my life?